“… let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.” – Hebrews 12:1b – 2
How easy it is to lose heart. How easy it is to give into emotions. How easy it is to forget God, His faith, His calling. How easy it is to rely on self.
How painful it is to lose heart. How painful it is to give into emotions. How painful it is to forget God, His faith, His calling. How painful it is to rely on self.
How easy. How painful.
Her heart she leaves behind whenever she returns to the place she grew up. Her heart full of love and hope for her new friends, for the city she fell in love with.
Yet without it here with her now, how is she to do anything that makes any sort of difference? Who is to say who deserves to be loved and who doesn’t? To love those around her, she must have her whole heart. To reach the for Jesus, she must have her whole heart.
To have her heart with her here does not mean she loves her city and her friends any less. They encompass a large portion of her heart, but there is room for more. There are more pieces to give away, more to receive. More risks to take for the sake of His Gospel.
The race set before her seems quite grueling. Her race will last two years. Two years of studying, term papers, midterms, final exams, work, and living in Portland. Two years to build endurance and stamina for the marathon that will come afterward – the marathon that will begin with a one-way ticket on an airplane traveling approximately 12.5 hours across the Pacific. Two years she has to prepare. Two years she must wait.
But God is faithful and will make her ready to serve Him there by letting her serve Him here. This will be her city for the duration of her race. Though she wishes to be on her way, she knows she is not equipped to serve the people she wants to give her heart to.
God will sharpen her. She will be ready soon enough.
For the joy set before her, she will endure her cross.