proof of a changing life

I think it’s scary how accurate this test is:

Presently, you are trying to break away from a situation that is causing you considerable worry and concern. Things are getting on top of you and you are feeling depressed almost to breaking point. Obviously there must be a way out – but at this time the solution seems to be escaping you. You want to ‘get away from it all’ and as a consequence you appear to be sullen and introverted and refuse to get involved in any discussion or arguments which could aggravate the situation. Accept the fact that ‘as you feel – so your body will respond’ and ‘pretend’ to the world about you that everything is going beautifully as, if you act as if ‘all is going well’ everything will, whether you believe it or not, work out as you would like it to.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don’t need anything to ‘Rock your boat’. You want to ‘love’ and to be loved’.

You feel that you should be appreciated far more than you are but no-one seems to care! You feel that you are receiving less than your share and the main problem is that there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. The inner stress that you are experiencing makes you quick to take offence but you realise that at this particular moment in time there is little that you can do to relieve the situation.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker – to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that ‘I may not always be right but I am never wrong’. You’re a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person’s point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

It is strange that the anxiety that you are experiencing at this time is of your own making simply because of your desire to be respected by your fellow man and with those whom you work with. You are not satisfied. The normal congenial ‘you’ is becoming quite introverted. This is becoming increasingly more obvious because you seem to shy away from participating in everyday activities. You are refusing to allow yourself to become involved or to participate with others and it is the reluctance to communicate that is the inherent cause of your problems.

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At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, ‘Simpatico’.

You are a perfectionist in everything that you put your hand to. You are demanding and very exacting in the standards you apply to your choice of colleagues and friends -perhaps you demand too much from people. That perfection you seek in a particular person is illusive – perhaps it does not even exist.

You are experiencing extreme frustration at this point of time, trying to achieve security and peace of mind, but whatever you seem to do doesn’t effect the situation. You are worn out and your energy is being seriously depleted. You may be experiencing what is known as ‘heartache’ – both mentally and physically. You are a listener and you listen and respond to everything that is going on around you. You feel that all that life has to offer should be within your grasp and you would like to participate in every part of it but the situation is such that every door seems to be closed to you. You just can’t understand why that is. But it is – and what’s more you feel powerless to change it.

You feel worn out – you have no energy and your depleted vitality has created intolerance for any further stimulation. You feel inadequate and this subjects you to agitation, irritation and acute distress from which you try to escape by refusing further direct participation. You have become very wary and cautious but you have an inner strength. You have that determination to get your own way and succeed in the end.


RPG Dreamin

No one would ever really think it, but video games teach you a whole heckuva lot! Video games teach me random lessons here and there. I’m gonna focus on Lunar (the first one mostly) and Final Fantasy.

Here are 10 things I thought up on the top of my head… If I think of any more… I’m definitely jotting it down. O.o

1) Never try to be something you’re not. It’ll come back to bite you in the end

  • as witnessed in FF7 – Cloud tries to impress Tifa by becoming SOLDIER – he ended up being experimented on and having an identity crisis as a result, and then not to mention falling in love with Zack’s girl when he thinks he’s Zack, all the while still remembering faintly about Tifa, whom he (Cloud) loves.

2) If you try to live out your life along with someone else’s life, then you can’t live out either of your lives.

  • as witnessed in FF7 & FF7: Advent Children – When Zack dies, Cloud promised to go on living for the both of them, and now there’s awkwardness between him and Tifa as she continues to care about him, and he has to refrain from living his own life and being with her.

3) You can’t go through life alone.

  • as witnessed in: Kingdom Hearts, Final Fantasy, Lunar – their life span to the player spans the beginning of the journey/game to the climactic ending where they saved the world. And they need their friends; each one brings something new to the table, be it magic, healing, swordsmanship, brains, etc. Specifically in Lunar, there are questions that only certain characters can answer in one of the towers.

4) If it’s meant to be, not even time and all the nasty fiends in the world can do anything about it.

  • as witnessed in: FF7 with Cloud and Tifa – 10 years later, they’re finally working on it!
  • FFX/X-2 – Yuna starts looking for Tidus & after 55 hours of game time, they’re reunited.
  • any game: you can take all the time you need to level up and get to the final boss

5) If you don’t think things through, you will get your butt kicked.

  • as witnessed in: all RPG & strategy games – I got my butt whupped by a little old man in X-2 & it took me AT LEAST 30+ times to beat the last boss in X

6) It’s okay to question things if you find it a little shady.

  • as witnessed in: FFX – Yevon, whom everyone gives praise to, is the same dude as Sin, who terrorizes Spira after 10 years of Calm, and a Summoner arises to face it

7) Patience is a freaking virtue… a learned one. And I’m gonna go ahead and pair that with “if at first you don’t succeed, try, try, try again.”

  • As witnessed in FFX-2 – 55 hours of playing time… ‘nuff said.
  • FFX – my friend played 80 hours and ½ of it was devoted to finding and obtaining the secret weapons and their upgrades and the secret aeons.

8) If you love someone, cherish them.

  • As witnessed in Lunar – Alex and Luna. ‘Nuff said. The story of the game changed from an adventure with friends where Alex wants to become DragonMaster to a rescue mission where he HAS to become DragonMaster about halfway through.
  • FFX-2 – Tidus says that Yuna should treasure him and the dream (Tidus himself) stays a reality
  • FF7 – Cloud needs to work on this one. Tifa’s been waiting 10+ years for him!

9) Take a leap of faith… it’s worth it just to learn from it.

  • As witnessed in ALL RPG games. You generally have to take on the entire world and/or save it. And think, if no one took it, Sephiroth, Sin, and Shuyin would’ve destroyed Spira in 7, X, and X-2, respectively. And Ghaleon would’ve taken over Lunar without seeing the flaw in his plan and mentality, and he wouldn’t have learned to cherish Lunar and Althena and the people in Lunar.

10) When you make a mistake, you learn from it and not make the same one.

  • As witnessed in FFX – the only way to “defeat” Sin was to sacrifice one of the Summoner’s guardians and create a new aeon – Yuna decided against this and, in doing so, brought about the Eternal Calm, and Spira no longer has to worry about Sin coming back to destroy villages and kill the citizens any longer.
  • X-2 – Nooj planned to sacrifice himself and take Shuyin out with him. Yuna flat out told him his plan sucked. She recalled how difficult it was to have to make the decisions she did and having to sacrifice all her aeons in the end. Well, that part was actually pretty necessary and they wanted to be sacrificed so that Yu Yevon couldn’t possess them and turn them into his new Sin.

So next time y’all think your roommies are just bumming in front of the box, they’re actually learning some life lessons. =)