I don’t even know how to start this post. O.o
Today started off really rough, but you know… strangely enough, I can say it was a good day.
About a month ago, I got an email from CSUF regarding my registration date for spring semester, and well, it was this morning, but I found out this morning that I haven’t been accepted to the school yet. I was incredibly frustrated in the morning cuz more or less everything kinda fell apart from how things were “supposed” to be.
I definitely wanted to curse up a storm this morning, but I felt it on my heart to listen to God and get into His word instead. I kept asking where He wanted me to go, and I recalled hanging out with Phoebe yesterday and she mentioned Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
It hit me at that moment, and I was like… “Dang, Jesus!”
Within a few minutes from that, I wasn’t even thinking about whether or not I’d get in by Spring or how frustrated I was with the school. The only thing on my mind suddenly was how I could bless God while going through all the craziness.
Worrying about and getting angry over this situation isn’t going to make them accept me any quicker.
And I realized that if I hadn’t hung out with Phoebe yesterday, I know that today would’ve been much different. What happened yesterday was what allowed what happened today to happen smoother. Did that make sense? It’s a little late. But yeahh….. it wasn’t like we planned anything. We planned to meet Friday, and instead of going to the FedEx and sitting there for 45 minutes, Phoebe called me just in time, and I had somewhere to be for that extra amount of time.
God’s been trying to teach me to trust Him, and I knew more than anything that I really needed to give up a whole heck of a lot of pride and planning. Well…… talk about giving up control, huh? heh.
So somehow, I don’t feel angry or frustrated. A little bit annoyed, but more than anything, I feel really blessed. And lots of peace.
thanks for everyone’s prayers! =)